GOD in my LIFE

Numbers 23:19 God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind.

Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?

There is only one God and HE loves me.   I can’t even count how many people that I have come across in my life time.  How many that I have invested time in.  How many I have loved.  How many that I have probably hurt a time or two.  How many who have hurt me.  How many who have come and gone.  How many?  But there is only ONE who can be everything to me.  Only ONE who has invested in me unconditionally.  Only ONE who promises will never fail me.  Only ONE!  GOD!

Lord, I love and I’m grateful! Amen!



Romans 6:4 Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.

Oh so many years ago, when I was baptized into Christ, did I really know what that meant for my life?  Was it a miraculous transformation of mind and body?  I wish I could say it was.  Now, was I more aware of my sin once I made that decision? Yes!  But it didn’t keep my humanness from showing its true colors at times.  Deciding to honor my Lord through baptism and working towards that transformation, for me, has been a work in progress.  Everyday over the last almost 40 years I have taken baby steps towards finding my way to Him.   I also have taken more than a few steps backwards.  But that is okay, not okay that I sometimes consciously take them, but okay because I know my Lord will forgive me when I admit the error of my ways and go to Him with humility and sorrow.  No one is perfect once they step foot out of the pool of water from baptism and He knows that but it is the 1st baby step towards seeking Him to fill your life with love and wonderment!  Honor Him with this decision and walk in the newness of life forever.  I know that today I will be a little closer to being that person that He has designed me to be.

Lord Father, thank You for being my Father. For understanding me, for who You have made me and not for who I portray at times.  Be with me today during my walk with You, helping me straighten up when I curve off Your path.  Amen!



1 Thessalonians 2:8   so we cared for you. Because we loved you so much, we were delighted to share with you not only the gospel of God but our lives as well.   BibleGateway.com-Logo

Invest………….  we each will have a different thought when we’re asked “What do we invest in?”.  Most would say is 1st a financial thought.  Stocks, bonds, IRA , whatever form we need to get a financial return is what we invest in. We might move to our careers. Which school, academic grades, job choices,  whatever is going to make us the most successful in the career arena is what we invest in. Some invest in their hobbies,  health, religious knowledge, our homes and our churches.

I invest alot of time in my hobby. I love to have a beautiful yard and it takes time, sweat and sometimes tears of pain but it’s worth it for me to have a beautiful yard so I INVEST IN IT.

In Thessalonians, he is talking about people.  Investing in people.   Unlike my yard and my flowers, I can plant it and most of the time it will grow without me doing 1 other thing to it. But sometimes I have to fertilize it, nurture it and feed it so that the roots will take hold and grow strong.  People are the same in that way.  I can’t say “HI” to someone and they automatically become my best friend.  I can’t quote a scripture to them on God’s love and they automatically become a follower of Jesus.  I can’t invite them for dinner, feed them a meal and think they will put down roots and grow strong.  I have to invest my time with them.  Generally that means a life time, theirs and mine.

I have had many people over the years invest in me.  Help me through the rocky mountains and pull me up from deep deep valleys.  They have nurtured me , feed me and walked with me as my roots became deeper and my heart became stronger.

1 Thessalonians 2:8   so we cared for you. Because we loved you so much, we were delighted to share with you not only the gospel of God but our lives as well.

We must invest. Just as we invest in our finances, careers, hobbies, homes and churches, we must invest in people.  We 1st must invest in the people we live with.  Be delighted to share the gospel of God with everyone you meet. Invest for a life time and you’ll be invested for an eternity.

Lord, You know me better than I know myself.  You know my areas of weakness and you know what I need to become deep rooted in You and fully invested in others.  Help me! Amen.


Friday’s Question

Has God hit me upside the head to move and I stood still?

Job 33:14 For God does speak—now one way, now another—   though no one perceives it.

Luke 6:46 “Why do you call me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do what I say?

Matthew 7:24  “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock.

John 16:13  But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.

Isaiah 30:21   Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”

I know that there have been certain things that I’ve said “If God wants me to do that (whatever it is) then he is going to have to knock me down, kick me around and hit me upside the head.”  But generally He does not work like that.  Man it would be so much easier if he did.  We must stay connected to HIM daily and pray to be FULLY ALERT to the callings of the Holy Spirit who dwells inside us.  Most likely it’s going to be a gentle voice that’s talking to us from within.  Sometimes He may even talk through other people.  You have to be ware of this though because it’s not always the Spirit talking through others.   The Holy Spirit will give us nudges, if we ignore them, he will nudge again.  Eventually we can’t ignore them any longer but we can make a conscious decision not to move.  Are we connected with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and do we move when He nudges?

Lord, help me to hear your voice guiding me. Amen



When I was young, I had a dream of being a marriage counselor.  I don’t know why that was the profession I thought I wanted but somehow God must have been working on me even then.   Once I graduated from HS, I headed up to college after already falling in love with what I believed to be the man God designed for me.  He wasn’t quite ready to settle but once I was away for 1 semester, he changed his mind.  I still wanted to be a marriage counselor but being a wife and mother was absolutely my #1 desire.   So off to be married I went and out the window went my degree.

10 years and a failed marriage, 2 children and a 24 year 2nd marriage later, I’m finding out that God did have a plan for me to be a counselor (lending ear).  His plans are fulfilled even if they look a bit different than in the traditional sense.  I may not have that piece of paper but I have a lot of experience.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm youplans to give you hope and a future.

1 Corinthians 1:30 

And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption,

Proverbs 19:20 

Listen to advice and accept instruction, that you may gain wisdom in the future.

Proverbs 16:16 

How much better to get wisdom than gold! To get understanding is to be chosen rather than silver.

I have learned a lot over the last 45 years of adulthood.  I’ve learned that no matter how much you love a person, if that person is not following God’s will then your love is not counted as great.  I’ve learned that raising children is hard.  They’re cute when they’re born and they hang on your every word but eventually they grow up, get a mind of their own and might stray from your instructions.  I’ve learned that marriage is a challenge, regardless of how devoted you are to each other.  I’ve learned that even though I think I’m right, more than likely I’m not.  I’ve learned that it’s hard to let go when your children create their own families but it’s necessary and the sooner I start, the easier it is for everyone.   I’ve learned that it can be more blissful to keep my mouth shut than it is to prove my point.  I’ve learned that loving someone is always important but it may have to be from a far.  I’ve learned that I must forgive myself for my sins before I will even think about forgiving others for theirs.   I’ve learned that it’s not my expectations of others that need to be fulfilled, it’s what God wants for them that’s most important.  I’ve learned that hanging in there may seem impossible but God will give me the strength and bless my efforts.  Most important lesson I’ve learned is, God has my back, I could not make it through 1 day without him by my side and whenever in doubt, ask Him and wait for His answer.

Experience can be used to fulfill God’s plans!

“Jesus is the only thing that we pursue that doesn’t leave us more empty.” By Jennie Allen

So, at 55 years old, I REALLY didn’t know “ME” until the last few years and I’m still becoming acquainted.  What’s changed?  My relationship with God has changed.  He has allowed me to go through my experiences, which has drawn me closer to him and through the process I found out how important I am to Him.  I found out that I’m His, a loved, forgiven, blessed and redeemed child of God.

Growing my relationship with the Lord has changed me.

Now how has that affected me as a wife, mom and grandma “Lollie”.  If it wasn’t for my love for the Lord and His devotion to me, I would not be that “MOM” that I need to be.  His has been my constant and unconditional love, which has taught me how to do that with my family.  He has taught me how to forgive by forgiving.  He has taught me boundaries by showing me boundaries and not sheltering me from my choice but loving me through them. He has taught me determination by sticking by my side and giving me the strength to endure the tough times.  He has taught me compassion by providing people around me that as shown me compassion.  He has taught me how to weather through the storms of relationships by freely giving me grace when I was stubborn and wanted to pull away.   And more…… All these things have made me a better wife, mother and grandmother.

2 Corinthians 3:4-6

Such confidence we have through Christ before God.  Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.  He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.

He molded me in my mother’s womb and knew what his plan was and waited patiently for me to figure it out. To reach to Him for a firm relationship.  He taught me how to be in relationship.  And I’m still learning.  And making me better each day, only because of Him.

Just like me, working the ground, planting my flower, tending to the care by giving them the nourishment they need, waiting for the blooms and being amazed at the beauty.  The Lord does the same for me.  He sets the plan in motion, laying the pathway, plants in me the gifts and courage, feeds me His words and strength, waits patiently for me to grow and loves me forever.

4 years of Waiting patiently for the growth…. involved experience that will be valuable!

Lord, I thank you for loving me and teaching me to hang on, look for what your trying to teach me, learn from my experiences and put it into practice .


Didn’t Win the Lottery

Joy Planck:  Joy………..what can I say about Joy?  She puts a smile on my face every time I see her.  She is simply a …..joy!  And what is fantastic about it is that if life is running smoothly, she is a joy and if life is finding it’s trials, she is a joy.  Doesn’t matter what life 10898013_724273937691181_3215757218075290447_nis throwing at her, she knows who to turn to and that’s Christ.  I’ve seen her grow in His love and it’s been beautiful. Now does she still struggle with those demons that want to roam around in her head, YES, but she is a fighter!  I’m so thrilled that God gave me the privilege to call her “friend”.

My life as a follower of Jesus began because of my need for acceptance.  But more than wanting myself to be part of the “in” crowd, I wanted my daughter to be a part of it.

I was not a “good girl”.  I grew up in a family where parents were divorced, relationships were not healthy and kids knew themselves to be little more than burdensome.  My life reflected my upbringing and I was a kid who lied and contrived and became a girl who drank and partied a little and slept around…a lot.  I had not one ounce of respect for self and, at the same time believed in nothing by my own needs, wants and feelings.

So when, at the age of 26 I found myself married for the second time with two little girls, one 4 and the other just a year old, I began searching…hard.  I wanted something better for my kids than the haughty looks “nice” folks had given to me.  If you’re anything like me you know the people I mean and the looks I’m talking about. I never wanted my kids to feel like they weren’t good enough – even when they hadn’t done anything wrong but be born.

I realized one of the common things about all the kids who were accepted  was that they all went to the big Christian Church in town on the corner.acceptance

Around that time I got a promotion at work.  I went out to the warehouse to work on the filing system and try to help and bring some order to the place but I certainly got far more than I bargained for!  When I began my tenure I was a smoking, cursing, debacle of a person.  I gossiped and complained and groused full time.  I cannot imagine how difficult it must have been for that group of Christian men to endure those first few months working alongside me.  But as time wore on, I wore down and their little mentions of church or God or their tame weekends spent with their loving families got me asking questions. There was another member of our break room friend group who worked in another department and just so happened to be a youth pastor at a local church.  Needless to say, he was all too eager to answer any questions I had about God and church.

I finally got up the nerve, with much urging from my new friends, to walk through those big wooden doors at the big church on the corner in town!  I did it!  And nobody threw me back out the door!  They accepted me with open arms in spite of the fact that it was a small town and most of them knew who my parents were.  I was so excited.   I read my Bible and went to Sunday school and took my older daughter.  The little one was a handful and her daddy would not go to church with me, so I left her home with him.  I didn’t figure it was too big a deal since she really wouldn’t know what was going on anyway.

When I came to work one day and said that I’d had a discussion with the pastor and planned to be baptized they were thrilled.  The youth pastor’s first question was, “Did he pray with you?”  I looked at him, exasperated, and said, “No.  Why?”  YP’s reply was simple, you need to get saved.  I told him I didn’t know what that even meant and said, “Tell me what I need to do and I’ll do it now!”  So I prayed, in the break room, with my coworkers who’d led me so well along my journey joined in with me and I asked Jesus into my heart and it was perfect.  I spent the rest of that day walking on a cloud.  I finally belonged to the club!  But there were vulnerabilities in my young, Christian heart and as we know from I Peter 5:8, we must be sober, be vigilant; because our adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

I was saved and I was a Christian and Jesus was in my heart, but life was not perfect.  My life was lacking in many ways and the biggest was in my marriage.  My husband and I fought constantly.  My young daughter was caught in the middle and I didn’t know what to do about it.  I had never, in all my life witnessed a healthy, loving relationship and certainly did not know what to do to get one.  I talked to my friends, family and colleagues about my troubles and they were only too happy to sympathize with me as I dishonored my husband and flushed my marriage vows down the figurative toilet daily.

The sympathy I got from one, certain friend grew from empathy for my situation, into attraction and then more.  Before I realized what had happened, I was involved in a very inappropriate relationship and, although I knew it was wrong and that I wanted my marriage to survive for the sake of my baby girl, the attraction I felt to the life I wanted – with a Christian man – was so very strong.   He was so kind and good (I thought).  I failed to see the situation from his wife’s point of view!  I remember lying in bed and NOT praying for God to change my situation, because even in those early days of my walk with the Lord, I knew that, according to Matthew 17:20, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’, and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.  I wanted to think that God was handing me the ready-made, easy, perfect life I’d always dreamed of.  But in my heart I knew better, simply because I was reading God’s word and so I knew the truth.  What I didn’t know from reading the Bible and my short experience with Christian living, I knew from the small, quiet whisperings of my savior.  I knew that Marriage is honorable among all (Heb 13:4) and that I had to preserve mine.

Finally, I could pray!  I prayed for God to take away my impure thoughts and He did just that.  And, after all these years, I’ve not been tempted in that way again.  I repented, admitted what I’d done to my husband and begged him for forgiveness.  I broke off the relationship with my friend and am beyond thankful to be able to say I ended the affair of the heart before it became more!  The Lord changed me during that time and I turned to my husband and away from the rest.  I learned to lean on God first and then my spouse and discovered so much I hadn’t realized.  I came to KNOW my man for the honest, strong and dependable leader I had always dreamed of being married to.

God has continued to bless me in my life since I began to follow him all those years ago.  I’ve moved, been promoted at work, seen my husband promoted and watched our kids grow into wonderful adults.  We’ve had our trials, to be sure.  My husband still does not attend church with me, but I am comforted and have peace, even in his absence.  My kids are not perfect and struggle with school and friends at times, but I have perfect peace and know that God is doing a good work in them.  My extended family struggles are daunting and run the gamut at times between alcoholism, drug addiction, depression, etc. but I am no longer plagued with jealousy, guilt and anxiety.

Many people say they are “blessed” and then go on to explain how they live a life of perfection.  It’s almost as if “blessing” equals winning the lottery.  I didn’t win the lottery when I came to know Jesus but He took me by the hand, He opened my eyes to the joy I didn’t know was available to me or even existed.  I didn’t win the lottery that day in the break room at work, but found a much better prize.  A prize worth more than money, or stature or reputation; I won the trophy of life – MY life.blessed  I took it out of this world and the hands of the devil and gave it over to the Only One who truly values it for what it’s worth! – Joy Planck

Lord, Thank you so much for friendship.  Thank you for the example of your Son on earth. The relationship with you is my guidance and value.  The relationship I have with those here on earth is my joy and care.   I so appreciate those you have set in my path. I pray Lord for those that don’t understand the need for relationships.  I pray for their loneliness and shame they carry with them daily.  I pray that they will let go and open up to a world with You in it.  Amen!


Control or Injustice

1 Peter 2:23 While being reviled and insulted, He did not revile or insult in return; while suffering, He made no threats [of vengeance], but kept entrusting Himself to Him who judges fairly.

I’m not going to type much about this subject but I am going to attach the link from church service yesterday morning.  I cried through most of it.  I’m sure that I’m not the only one who has been dealt a hand of injustices.  I’m also sure that I’m not the only one who has dealt the injustice out.  In the false sense of being in control we say and do things that are harmful to others, without even blinking an eye.  We want so badly to get what we want, have that sense of self security, find pleasure where it’s not ours to have and firm up our place in a certain position that we forget that there are other people around with needs and desires of their own.  We are also sometimes put in the position of receiving the injustices.  Those injustices may be minor in the scheme of life but some can be detrimental to the self worth of the other person.   Some injustices follow a person their entire life.

As you will hear in the attached sermon, a false sense of control and the injustices done always come with consequences.

Those consequences may be here on earth and then maybe not!  

Click on the blue link below:

Providence and Peripety -“Control” by Mike McCormick @ Calvary Christian Church

Esther 2:21-3:6

Romans 8:28

Philippians 3:10

Ecclesiastes 12:13-14

We must live a life in a way that we show love to others and sometimes that means taking ourselves out of the equation.

Lord, thank you for being my protector and defender.  I honestly don’t know where I would be Lord if I had never been told about you.  Daily I am thankful!  Please help me walk a life each day being aware of the hearts of others, the needs of others and the hurts of others.   Help me stop before I speak, think before I act and pray before I judge.  I pray Lord for those that also find it hard to not jump into control mode before looking to You for direction.  I love you and thank You for always being my best guide. Amen!