How do you trust, when it feels like your life is out of control?



Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6




I love swinging high!  The freedom of floating through the air and the smells of my surroundings rushing past me.  But if I go too high or too fast and the swing takes a turn of twisting and swaying then it can feel a bit out of control.  But with swing, I always have the option of putting my feet firm on the ground and the out of control feelings vanish.  Life is not like that.  My feet have been as firm as they could be on the ground beneath me and my life was still OUT OF MY CONTROL!

I’ve learned how to TRUST, when my life is out of my control!  STOP!  TAKE A DEEP BREATH IN! CLOSE MY EYES AND SEE “HIM” STANDING NEXT TO ME! SCREAM! BE SILENT! REST! What ever my emotions are telling me through this out of control-ness, I do it!  But I do it with HIM!

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

Lord, thank your for being my firm ground. Amen!



Hard (Deceitful)

Psalms 101:7 He who works deceit shall not dwell within my house; He who tells lies shall not continue in my presence.

Being honest and living with integrity seems to be a practice that is hard to do and a thing of the past.  Where there is deceitfulness there also lies a person that is living for self.


de·ceit·ful -1. given to deceiving: A deceitful person cannot keep friends for long.

  1. intended to deceive; misleading; fraudulent: a deceitful action.


  1. insincere, disingenuous, false, hollow, designing, tricky, wily. 2. illusory, fallacious.

Antonyms :

  1. honest. 2. genuine

A deceitful person will end up alone because they are unable to foster relationships.  To dwell in the house of the Lord we must be honest and genuine.  Ugg…….to do that we must let others inside our head, allowing them to see our thoughts, open up our hidden boxes of skeletons, feel our fears and see our failures.  But being honest and genuine with a friend (God) also allows them to balance out of thoughts, burn those skeletons, protect  us from our fears and give us grace from our failures.  God made us for relationship, He made us so that we would one day dwell with Him and He made us to care for others before ourselves.  We can’t do that if we’re not in open relationship.  Try it today.  Be honest, hiding nothing, being genuine in your relationships and see that the Lord knew what He was doing.

Lord Father, I come to you today with a full heart.  Desiring to be honest and genuine with You.  Allowing You to dwell inside me.  Directing my every move.  I know Lord that even if I didn’t verbally tell You about me, You still would know.  But the act of me opening up to You is more for me than You.  Talking to You is what brings me peace to my soul.  I am grateful Lord that You have placed in my life friends and family that I can be “REAL” with.  Never feeling that I have to hide from the truth about who I am.  I pray today Lord, that my family and friends will also understand the need for relationship with You.  Will be willing to be honest and genuine with You and they will be able to discern those that You have placed in their lives whom they can be “REAL” with.  I thank You with every fiber of my being.  Amen!



Pain to Victory

TeresaTeresa Martin:  I understand her drive! Some are born with a driven personality and some are “gifted” it through trials. When you face the hard and push through it, learning all the while what God has in store.  Taking it and growing in compassion for other women.  That’s Teresa!  I’ve only known her for a short while but thrilled that the Lord has blessed me with another “gifted”driven woman in my life.  Can’t wait to see what God has in store for us as a team.




I always knew there was a God but I did not know him.  At age 34 I had not read or studied the bible.  I only knew what others said about God and I didn’t hang around people who followed his ways.  When my childhood sweetheart and husband of 19 years had yet another affair and I knew divorce was the choice I had to make, I became a follower of Jesus, not just a person who believed he existed.  I started to pray through my pain and go to church and then eventually attended a bible study.  I watched people who worshiped unashamed and I longed for a relationship with God like that.  As my life, as I knew it, crumbled before me, I began seeking to know God and understand who he says I am and how much he loves me and my life was forever changed.  I committed my whole heart and surrendered my plans for my life to His plans for me.

In John 10:27 Jesus says “My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me.”

We can mature in grace and live the Christian life through a personal relationship with God in Jesus Christ. If we fully respond and are serious about this relationship with Jesus, then we are his disciples. Discipleship is the process of becoming the whole person God calls each of us to be through our relationship with Jesus Christ.  A disciple embraces God’s highest purpose for his or her life – to grow in the likeness of Christ for the sake of others.  Upon the advice of the Christian counselor I was seeing after my divorce, I went to see the minister of a large church in Lexington to talk about divorce.  He listened to my story and told me I was a minister because I could minister to those going through divorce.  He said his church had 8000 ministers because everyone who attended thee had their own ministry from their life’s story.  You do not have to be a clergy-person to be a minister.  Ministry is helping people become the whole persons God calls them to be in Jesus Christ.  Jesus called common fishermen to become the greatest kind of fishermen they could be- fishers of people.  God uses the pain of my divorce for me to serve others who are suffering in the same way.  I experienced the pain of divorce ending a 19 year marriage.  I could not have survived the pain without Jesus.  We lived on a farm and I was the one to leave because I knew I couldn’t take car of it.  My son, my only child, chose to stay at the farm.  I lost all of what I knew at the time to be mine at that moment, my home , my son and my husband.  My husband had been my best friend for 19 years and was my high school sweet heart.  My mom has an entry in my baby book from kindergarten “Teresa has her first boyfriend” and it was the boy I married in 197.  In Isaiah 61:1, we read, “He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted” and in chapter 61:2, “to comfort all who mourn”.  The Lord showed me that he was all I could truly call mine.  The Lord does not waist a hurt and has put in my path women going through divorce so I could share the generosity I have experienced from God.  I had been in bible study a couple of years when I was asked to lead a small discussion group.  I did not feel adequate , however the leader told me if I did I wouldn’t need Jesus!  I lead that group through several studies and saw God work in amazing ways.  Then the leader’s husband was called to ministry in another state.  She asked us to pray about who would take the leadership position of this large group of women.  As I prayed I heard  in my spirit the words “feed my sheep”.  I felt myself saying I can’t do that Lord.  Again I heard a still small voice saying, “you can do all things through Christ”.  I  was driving at the time so I sat down with my bible when I got  home knowing that if I heard from God it would be through His word.  I found both of those in scripture and other women on the prayer team confirmed they felt God was calling me to lead the group.  I was 34 years old before I accepted Christ as my Savior and as I surrendered to His will He called me to disciple other women.  I have been remarried 16 years and life can still be challenging and painful. I am thankful for God’s word that sustains and fulfills me.

We read about two kinds of persons in the Gospels:

  1. The crowds- the thousands of persons who sought out Jesus.  They were hungry and wanted to be healed.  But most were curious, not committed.  They were more FANS than FOLLOWERS.
  2. The disciples- those few who heard the call to follow, committed their lives to Him and put their faith into action.

The same two types of persons exist in today’s church.  Each of us must decide which we will be.  Will we stop short of fully responding to God’s grace and Call?  Or will we gratefully and wholeheartedly respond by becoming disciples of Jesus Christ?

Lord Thank You for giving me women like Teresa to share life with.  I praise You for know exactly what we need.  Please help us hear you clearly! Amen!





Jeremiah 29:11 

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Only God knows what is planned for our tomorrow.  It’s not my job to plan it out, it’s only my job to follow His lead.  Take the time for relationships, love, old and new.  Cherish the time today and live with the excitement of what comes tomorrow.  Thank Him for the friendships that He has given and Thank them for loving us as we are.  Living not for what is in the past but for what is in the future.  Where there is Hope there is God.


Thank you Lord for putting MORE in my life.  Amen!



Psalm 145:5 [Full Chapter]

They speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty— and I will meditate on your wonderful works.

One thing I love is WATER.  Water of  any kind that is in it’s natural setting.  Water running in a ditch way, rocky creek on a path,  streams flowing out of the rocky cliff, water fall gushing down a mountain top, babbling creek running along the road side, a lake and the ocean.  Yes, I even love the rain.    I love my fountain in my back yard making beautiful music with my wind chimes.  Natural waters, I love!
My husband knows that full well.  It just puts me in a peace that is un-explainable.  So when he takes me for a ride on our bike, we must seek out any form of water there is. God did that for me.  He placed those things on this earth to give me a place of peace.  He placed them here to create joy in my heart.  He placed them here so that I would be able to meditate on His wonderful works.
Along those rides I also experience other beautiful sights.  The glorious splendor of His Majesty.  I’d like to share that with you.  And I pray that peace will also be with you.
Giving Him glory for His love. Amen!


Deuteronomy 6:6-9   These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up.  Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads.  Write them on the door frames of your houses and on your gates. 6:1-25 (click for full chapter)

I never thought much about “Legacy” until I had grand children. It just wasn’t something that I was taught.  Never living in a close geographical location to my own grand parents, there just wasn’t that time of “sitting around the table” talking about our family history and laughing about the memories.  That is a sad realization.  And honestly when I was raising my children, even though we went to church as a family and were involved, I’m not sure that I did my part of making God part of our home life too.  I was JUST trying to make it through the day, as most young families are today.  But as I age I realize that I missed out on some rich conversations as I was growing up and as I was raising my children.  Some conversations that would have told me a lot about who I am as a person in my earthly life and in my spiritual life.  And told my children a lot about who they are and increased their desire to be with God.

Maybe if I’d had those conversations then it wouldn’t have taken me 45 years to see who I am to God.

So now I start with my grand children.  Spending time with them.  Talking with them about important events in our lives, sharing with them who I am, showing them their value as a person, laughing with them, crying with them, helping them and letting them help me.  But mostly sharing with them the wonders of a God who is ever lasting, loving and wants to give them their hearts desires (ref:  Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart).

So today I’m going to share with you a little from yesterday’s  sermon at church.  Take the time to have those conversations with the people in your life.  It’s never too late to start!

Leave a Legacy:

  1. Starts with You  Deut 6:1-3
  2. Move towards your family  Deut 6:2 – No IMPACT without CONTACT
  3. Connect with your local church Deut 6:6
  4. Broaden your reach to the community  Deut 6:9

Here are a couple of resources to get started with.


The ordinary Christian family is simply ordinary Christian people, living in the ordinary circumstances of life, out of the extraordinary grace of the gospel. ref: Tedd Tripp from “The Ordinary Christian Family” Click for full article

Lord, help me start today to make a more beautiful tomorrow for those I love. Amen