Today I wait. Waiting is the hard part.
I’m a “get it done”kind of gal. You give me challenge and I’ll make it happen.
I’m in a season of my life where I’m finding myself leaning less on me and more on HIM. My world has been turned upside down in several areas over the last few years and I’m finding it harder to “get it done” then I ever have before.
I have no doubt that this season is for a reason. And this reason is only known by the ONE who knows me best. Now it’s my turn to allow HIM to “get it done”. To store up HIS commands and wait. To take all that I have learned to this point and wait. To seek out understanding and insight and wait. To cry out to HIM and wait.
Trust and Wait
Proverbs 2 -Moral Benefits of Wisdom
2 My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
2 turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
3 indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
4 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
5 then you will understand the fear of the Lord
and find the knowledge of God.
6 For the Lord gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
7 He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
8 for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.
9 Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
11 Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.
12 Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men,
from men whose words are perverse,
13 who have left the straight paths
to walk in dark ways,
14 who delight in doing wrong
and rejoice in the perverseness of evil,
15 whose paths are crooked
and who are devious in their ways.
16 Wisdom will save you also from the adulterous woman,
from the wayward woman with her seductive words,
17 who has left the partner of her youth
and ignored the covenant she made before God.[a]
18 Surely her house leads down to death
and her paths to the spirits of the dead.
19 None who go to her return
or attain the paths of life.
20 Thus you will walk in the ways of the good
and keep to the paths of the righteous.
21 For the upright will live in the land,
and the blameless will remain in it;
22 but the wicked will be cut off from the land,
and the unfaithful will be torn from it.
Habakkuk 2:1 I will stand at my watch and station myself on the ramparts; I will look to see what he will say to me, and what answer I am to give to this complaint.
I know that I’m not the only one who has walked through hard times. Those times for me have come in varied shapes and sizes. And I have walked through them with varied sizes of faith. I share with others that these times are simply an opportunity for growth and a season for learning how to lean on our Lord more but when we’re walking them, it’s hard to see that!
Recently I was walking through one of those times. My dear husband recognized in me what I couldn’t recognize for my self. My faith wasn’t leading my walk and I needed a time of rest so that I could hear the Lord more clearly. So he sent me away for a time such as this. God gave me a wise man. I’m calling this my Happy Place rest!
I took a 9 day trip and rested while I visited many who love me. You know God puts people and places here on earth that will restore, replenish and refocus us. They are God’s hands to hold us, His voice to soothe us and His creations for our eyes to be amazed and marvel at His glory.
My first stop was with supportive and loving but at times also honest friends. We all need those. You know the ones who love us NO MATTER WHAT and when needed will be LOVINGLY HONEST. This is a time of RESTORING!
Then I had a fabulous couple of days with family. Now understand not everyone that is considered family is a blood relative. Over these 2 days I had precious moments with my grandchildren and their parents (my son and his wife). Some how grandchildren trump the child! A time of REFOCUSING!
Then I also visited my old church in my home town. I call it the church I grew up in. Now understand I didn’t attend church when I was a child. So my growing up years were in my 20’s, 30’s, 40’s and 50’s. I was at this church for 28 years during the most crucial times. Young married, young parenting and young Christian period. They loved me through some of the joyous times and some of the hardest times of my life. I took steps forward and steps back during those years. I’ve been gone from that church for almost 7 years now and those people, the ones that when I walked in on Sunday morning, their hearts seemed to melt as they hugged me and reminded me how much they love me. A time of REPLENISHING!
Then I was off! Off to a new location for restoring, replenishing and refocusing!
Next stop was at my dad’s and step mom’s. And of course they just happen to leave at the beach……. A time of REPLENISHING! When we recognized the beauty of HIS creation it will settle the soul.
Just in the last 2.5 years, I have gotten reacquainted with my dad. After almost 50 years of not being a part of each others life we now have a chance. So this visit gave us a chance for him to show me off to relatives that remember me but I have no memory of. And also a chance to start a new relationship with a generation below me who I hope to continue this life with. He was able to show me the home that he was born in. A chance for me to make those memories. A time of REFOCUSING!
Now it was time for my trip to head back to where I came from.
When we’re on trips of restoring, replenishing and refocusing, we must be aware of what God places in front of us. One of God’s greatest creations in my book is a body of water. Doesn’t matter the size of the body just as long as it contains water. So as I’m driving I notice quickly a lake just a short distance off the road on my right. I started to pass it up but I remembered that HE talks to me clearer when there is water to wash away all the dirt. So I quickly found a road that lead to the right and I drove until I found a place where I could drive up and walk to the water. A time for REPLENISHING.
After a few minutes of viewing and a prayer of thanksgiving to the Lord, I was off to my next destination. I headed straight to the home of my Aunt Judy and Uncle Fred’s for some good food and love. I was able to share this time with my cousin and his wife, whom I love dearly. Never do I pass up an opportunity to see family who feeds into me words of love and wisdom. I also got to meet one of the newest additions to the family…. my 3rd cousin. It had been many years since I had spent time with them and it was a much needed time of RESTORING.
After a quick sleep over in my home town, I was off again to my home in Kentucky. During all the driving I took opportunity to praise my Lord in worship and listen to a book called “Circle Maker” and I enjoyed the time that the Lord gave me to RESTORE, REPLENISH AND REFOCUS. But it wasn’t until I pulled into my drive way and looked at the home that awaited me when I realized that the Lord had done all these things for me. He had given me people and places and his creation just for a time as this.
And He reminds me of His promises.
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. John 14:27
He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint. Isaiah 49:29-31
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jereimiah 29:11
Thank you Lord for your never failing, ever lasting, great and mighty love!
Why did that happened?
John 16:33“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
I’ve found that “life” just happens and sadly enough some of it is just not pleasant. I’ve had many great blessings happen in my life but I’ve also had many that were and some still are very heart breaking. I keep waiting for the blessings to start out weighing the heart breaking. I’m not sure that is ever going to happen.
The one thing that I have that so many others don’t is Jesus will overcome this world! And I am part of HIS family. A very important part. Even though Jesus didn’t deserve or understand why those around him acted and felt the way they did, he still loved and went to that cross for them. He still bared that burden of sin in this world. But He knew that His seat was not of this world it was of heaven with His father. I have that same promise. When life happens………. I know where my seat is in heaven.
What am I supposed to learn?
James 1:12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
I used to worry and fret and blame and curse. I would fuss and grumble. I would never look within to see if there was a lesson in that situation for me to learn. But in John 1 it says “blessed is the one who perseveres under trials, having stood the test”. But that doesn’t come naturally to me. Naturally I want to crumble under the pressure and curl up on the couch, eating anything I can find and then going for more. It was not until one day, one trial I looked deep to see what I could learn. And now, with each new trial I look. I search. I ask for His to show me 1 thing I can learn. And you know what………….. He will. It may be a simple lesson. It may be a lesson that I’ve learned before but need a little reinforcement. Or it may be a brand new one. With each new lesson brings a new opportunity to receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised me. This process helps the current trial be easier to bare. I’d be lying if I said that I never worried, grumbled, fussed, blamed or fretted any longer but that me, doesn’t hang around long because the LORD has promised something different to those who love him.
When will your will be shown?
Lamentations 3:25-26 The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
This has to be the hardest step. WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING I don’t like waiting. Most of society doesn’t like waiting. We have created a microwave world where everything come instantly and like we want it. If the microwave doesn’t do it for me, I can do it myself and not have to depend on anyone else for what I want. But really guys……. this is not reality. Reality is that the BEST THINGS come to those who wait on the Lord. But in that waiting, I also must be quiet and listen for His words. I just recently had another one of those times when I thought I was waiting and then as soon as that “thing” happened that I thought was from the Lord I jumped in with all fours. I just knew it was from Him. Because everything and I do mean every thing seemed so perfect. But I wasn’t listening to the Holy Spirit. You know that knot in the gut that just keeps saying “something ain’t right”. I recognized it but I didn’t listen to it enough to not jump in. Until weeks later when I realized that the serpent had just tricked me into taking a bite of that apple. So this time it was a lesson once learned but I needed to be reminded of. So now, I wait and listen and maybe wait some more.
Where do you want me?
Psalm 37:23 The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way;
This one is the hardest to answer but in some ways the easiest. I know that he wants me where I can serve Him with the gifts and talents that he has given to me. Where his glory will be shown to the multitudes with all focus being on him and not on me. So there is my answer, the easy one that is. But the hard one, not so easy to type out. I think before I can fully understand where God wants me, I have to answer the first 3 questions and have them stamped forever in my head and my heart. It’s not until I have seen the trial for what it is and where it came from, until I have searched for the lesson that I need to learn and waited on him to guide me that I will find where HE wants me. So the hard answer is…. I’m still learning.
Where do you go when………………….?
you’re a child of alcoholic or drug addicted parents
the person you trusted most sexually abuses you
your family is torn apart by deception
physical violence starts showing marks on the inside not just the outside
you aren’t protected by those who are supposed to protect you
words being spoken are better at tearing you down than building you up
the one you love proves that your love isn’t enough
your child suffers by the hands of another
a sickness or accident takes a loved one and drops you in a mist of tears
your plan leaves you stranded
disappointment and sorrow seems to be your most faithful company
homes are destroyed
wealth is lost
sin has a stronghold
the bottle looks more promising than the bible
sounds in your head are louder than whispers of forgiveness
trust is a fairy tale when real life shows it’s true color
you search for a soft shoulder and all you find is a hard knock
pain bears down
the end is drawing near
you’re at a cross road with no signs
family leaves you
friends turn away
there seems to be no one to catch you as you fall
a smile is forced but a frown is simple
Where do you go when………………….?
For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”