About and Journey


Welcome!   So glad that you are able to join me.  I’m a wife, mother and better known as “Lollie” to 5 wonderful grandchildren.  For many years I knew there was a God but I really didn’t know how much He loved me until the last 10 years or so.   About the time I experienced my divorce, in 1992.  That is when I came to know Him as a God of relationships and it has been growing every day since.  He has carried me through many life experiences that has made me who I am.  Some were heart wrenching and some were glorious and all molded me to be a more compassionate and loving woman to the hurting around me.  I pray that you will find solace from this site.  I am anxious to share my heart with you and hope that you will share yours with me.  If I have learned anything from this journey that I’m on is this.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Know that this is His plan for you too.

My Journey

I’ll spare you all the growing up details except for a few.  My parents were married when I was 6 and I finally had a little sister when I was 10.   We didn’t attend church except for a few times that I can remember.  My family’s lives changed in a instant just a couple months before the birth of my sister.

With responsibilities, too much for a child, and other experiences I encountered as a youth, my childhood was, let’s just say, “out of the ordinary”.   These experiences influenced and caused consequences well into my adult life.  We moved to a neighboring town in the middle of my high school years.  I had a circle of friends but when out of my small little circle, I was invisible.  But God used every opportunity to mold me into the woman He planned for me.  And He is still molding.

I was introduced again to church and Christ in high school by my family’s neighbor.  It was also during that time when I was introduced to my future husband, who attended the church as well.  The white pick fence was all I could see. So we married 1 year after we graduated from high school.  10 years later I found myself divorced.  During those 10 years there were many heart breaking experiences but I came out of it with 2 wonderful children and a relationship with God.  So for that I can say “Thank You”.  Although I was left with a lot of brokenness.

Angela Thomas says, “we must realize that there will never be a healthy love between a woman and a man until she comes to rest and find her being in the great love of God.  God’s love gives wisdom in discerning the man.  God’s love gives direction and patience and hope.  God’s love lets us smile at the man’s quirks, just as God smiles at ours”.

But my brokenness over powered me at times.  My relationship with the Lord was growing and he was working on me and in the meantime, I meet my 2nd husband.  We were married a year later and the roller coaster continued.

Angela Thomas again says, “I hope that you have heard me.   A good man can be wonderful. But he can never be enough, and he can never make you whole.  You and I were made for even more.  We were made for God.”

New marriage, raising children, building a family, starting in a new home, careers, past baggage, illnesses and life. Beth Moore says: “I have discovered that if Satan can’t get  me with destruction, he will get to me with distractions.”

T.D. Hooks (senior minister of “The Potter’s House” church in Dallas TX) says, “Relationships can become crutches.  The infirm woman can place such weight on people that it strains a healthy relationship.  Healing cannot come to a desperate person rummaging through other people’s lives.  One of the first things that a hurting person needs to do is break the habit of using other people as a narcotic to numb the dull aching of an inner void.  The more you medicate the symptoms, the less chance you have of allowing God to heal you”.  Clinging to people is far different from loving them.  It is not so much a statement of your love for them as it is a crying out of your need for them. Like lust, it is intensely selfish.  It is taking and not giving.”

But life for me today is fantastic!  The Lord has never failed me even in my failures.  Satan wants to win my life over to his side but the Lord is hanging on tight to me.   After 20+ years, I am still married to a wonderful man that loves me more than I deserve.  And our children are leaning on Christ to raise their families. We are blessed!  We still struggle, we still fail and we still are holding on to the Lord with all our might.

I have all learned many things over the last years and here’s a few of them…

  • God is much bigger than I give HIM credit for
  • If I keep my mouth closed and don’t’ dwell on my will then HIS will is much easier to follow.
  • God is ever present and dependable
  • Love those around you like you only have today and never take for granted what you have been given.
  • Forgive, forgive, forgive or the unforgiveness will only hurt you.
  • Live a life of gratitude. It takes far less energy to be grateful than to find fault.
  • Be honest with yourself and then forgive yourself
  • Don’t fear being who God made you to be
  • Accept fully the forgiveness of Christ by showing Him daily that you understand what he has done for you

Philippians 3:12-14

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.  Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.  But one thing I do:  Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

A few scriptures that helped me listen to the Lord and let Him begin the healing process.

Psalm 143:10  Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.

James 3:1-12   “We get it wrong nearly every time we open our mouths”

Matthew 6:5-6: “Prayer, just be there as simply and honestly as you can manage.  The focus will shift from you to God and you will begin to sense his grace.”

Psalms 8  “I look at all the Lord has made and done and I wonder “Why do you even bother with me?”  Yet you do!”

Jeremiah 20:7-18: “I rest my case with you”

Matt 26:36-46: Jesus fell on his face praying, “My father, if there is any way, get me out of this.  But please, not what I want.  You, what do you want?”

This song by Colton Dixon sums it up……..

There are days I’ve taken more than I can give

And there are choices that I made That I wouldn’t make again

I’ve had my share of laughter

Of tears and troubled times

This is has been the story of my life

I have won and I have lost

I got it right sometimes But sometimes I did not

Life’s been a journey

I’ve seen joy, I’ve seen regret

Oh and You have been my God Through all of it

You were there when it all came down on me When I was blinded by my fear And I struggled to believe

But in those unclear moments You were the one keeping me strong

This is how my story’s always gone

I have won and I have lost

I got it right sometimes But sometimes I did not

Life’s been a journey I’ve seen joy, I’ve seen regret

Oh and You have been my God Through all of it

Through all of it

And this is who You are

More constant than the stars up in the sky All these years of our lives,

I look back and I see You

Right now I still do

And I’m always going to

I have won and I have lost

I got it right sometimes But sometimes I did not

Life’s been a journey

I’ve seen joy I’ve seen regret

Oh and You have been my God Through all of it

Oh and You have been my God Through all of it

Oh and You have been my God Through all of it

Oct 23,2015

In His Glory,


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