Disappointed before Anointed and Anointed before Appointed

Let me tell you, I have experienced a lot of disappointment in my life.  The world will do that to you.  For years I simply thought that was a way of life and no way to avoid it.  Something that just happens and you have to endure it. But then I started walking a little closer with my Lord and experiencing the gift of anointment.

An anointment is the application of oil in a religious ceremony. You don’t anoint your pasta with olive oil, anointment is usually performed by a religious leader on a person being blessed. You’re most likely to come across the noun anointment in a religious text or discussion.  ref:

No HE didn’t come down from heaven and rub oil over my head but the anointment that came from HIM was poured over my soul.

1 John 2:20  But you have been anointed by the Holy One, and you all have knowledge.
1 John 2:27  But the anointing that you received from him abides in you, and you have no need that anyone should teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about everything, and is true, and is no lie—just as it has taught you, abide in him.
2 Corinthians 1:21  And it is God who establishes us with you in Christ, and has anointed us,

I started seeing and paying closer attention to Him and His blessings, moving farther away from dwelling on the disappointments.  I began utilizing the greatest blessing of Jesus through the Holy Spirit.

Isaiah 61:1  The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor; he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound;

So no more bondage to disappointment, I am being freed from the disappointments of life.  This is also freeing me to love others better.

John 15:16   You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you.
Ephesians 1:3-4  Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love
Deuteronomy 14:2  For you are a people holy to the Lord your God, and the Lord has chosen you to be a people for his treasured possession, out of all the peoples who are on the face of the earth.

He chose me, can you believe it?  Nothing special to the world but spectacular to Him!  He chose me and has appointed me to walk on His path and carry out His will.

To be appointed is to be given a task or job. ref:

I am so excited for my eternal appointment.  As I walk this earth awaiting the most important meeting of my life.

With this God appointed future I must follow in His steps.  I must reach out to those who do not know Him and are still living the life of disappointment.  I must walk beside those who are seeking His guidance and encourage them through their path.  I must love as He has loved me.  I must not stop and allow my worldly self to get in the way.  I must pull my strength from Him and Him alone.  I must continue to trust as I remember my past to see how far He has brought me.  I must continue down the path of my appointment, knowing He is with me all the way.

Lord, I trust You and I have seen You work in me.  I draw my courage from You and I let You wipe away the fear of my mind.  I will walk as You walk with me.  Amen!





It is Well with My Soul

It’s is well with my soul.  Just saying it, relaxes me.  How do we find that place where we can truly say, It is well with my soul?

So, “In my distress I called upon the Lord; to my God I cried for help. From His temple he heard my voice, and my cry to Him reached his ears.” Ps 18:6

The last couple of years have been an extremely emotional time for me.  You would have thought after living through a divorce, hard marriage, a sick child and a rebellious child that I would know how to find that place easily.  But it seems that this world/Satan doesn’t give up easily, wanting to drag me into the darkness of anxiety.

And I cry out to Him, “To you, o Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, in you I trust” Ps 25:1-2

It has been proven to me in a big way, that even during the times of my divorce, hard marriage, sick child and a rebellious child that God was working in my life to put me where I am today.  He has allowed me to be in certain situations that were going to grow me emotionally and spiritually.  I didn’t realize that he was intimately working at the time but now that I look back he definitely was.  He knew what I needed now even then.  He knew the pain that I was going to be facing now and has taught me how to find the strength to endure through smaller/less painful situations.  He knew what I was going to have to face 2 years ago and at the perfect timing he brought my birth father back into my life, after 49 years, to fill a void and make the pain easier to bear.   He knew the things that I needed to learn so that I would be open to allowing this man, a stranger, enter my life, who would ultimately be a blessing to me and my family. HE KNEW ALL that I needed.

And I remember, “Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!”  Ps 27:14

So now I have found that place, where even in the pain, disappointment and sorrow, I can say, “It is well with my Soul”.

And my faith grows, “He restores my soul.  He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. “ Ps 23:3

I pray that yours will grow also and you can say, “It is well with my soul”

Click here “It is well with my Soul” by Matt Redman

Lord, You have always been with me and showed me your grace and love.  You have always known me and my needs, carrying me through my days.  You have been faithful to me and I am grateful for You.  I trust that you will continue to show your goodness to me and my family.  Keeping us safe.  I pray Lord that I will continue to walk down your path for my life and I pray that I will be willing to say “YES” to your calling for my life.  I pray Lord for those who know you but may still be walking in that darkness, unable to have peace in their soul.  I pray for those who do not know you yet and I pray for those that  you are preparing to put in their path.  Amen!


Live even in Death

Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.   It’s our choice.  Do we live this life as if we were dead?  Thinking with evil minds and acting with a dark heart? We don’t have to be literally dead in body to be dead in soul.  Our thoughts and our words will control our actions.  What sort of things do we let into our minds, things of evil or things of a spiritual nature.  I was with some friends and we got on a topic of a  “Slenderman”.  I had never heard of it.   Unbelievable!  Well, actually not.  This world has been over come with “self”.  Desiring control, excitement, mystery, power and any other word that would describe our self interest.  We must start somewhere, someone has to be the first in line, we can’t wait around for the other person to step up and show the world the way to Christ.  We (You and Me) have been chosen to head up the team of warriors of Christ and lead this world back to Him.  But we can’t do that if we’re living death in this life, living for self and exhibiting hatred instead of love.  We have all the power we need.  Not our power but His, our Saviors.  Let’s take that first step together.  Showing the world that it’s better to live life in this life.  A life of love and gratitude.  If we choose Him, we will eat the fruits of Life even in Death.

Dear Lord father, I am so thankful to You for sending Your Son to us.  Giving us a living example of how to live life.  I pray that I will look to Him to show me how to love those around me,  how to love myself but not live for myself and how to have a grateful heart even in the darkest times.  Because of Your sacrifice and His, we have Hope for today and eternity with You.  I pray Lord that as I walk this life today, I will release myself to You and speak only with love and humility.  I pray Lord that Your saving grace will be over my family and friends.  I pray that they will choose to live this life with You and rid themselves of the darkness of this world.  Amen!





171,476 words
The Second Edition of the 20-volume Oxford English Dictionary contains full entries for 171,476 words in current use, and 47,156 obsolete words. To this may be added around 9,500 derivative words included as subentries.
That is a lot of words.  My vocabulary isn’t anywhere near that, how about yours?  So with the words I use, I need to be particular about which ones and how I use them.  This is an issue that we should all consider.

Matthew 12:36

I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak,

Matthew 12:37

For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.”

Psalm 141:3

Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips!

But do I consider it?  Am I intentional with my words?  Am I using my words to build someone up or to tear them down?  Am I using my words constructively or destructively?  Am I using my words as the Lord would desire for me to or am I going completely against His will?

If asked, “Are you obedient to the will of God?”.  I would like to say with an absolute boldness, “YES!”.  But if I’m real with myself, I’d have to say “Sometimes”.

From the study books of Dann Spader, author of The 4 Chair Discipling, he says that obedience is God’s love language.  When we obey Him, we are showing Him love and honor.  Jesus made it clear that He did only what pleased His Father.

As in John 12:49 “For I did not speak on my own, but the Father who sent me commanded me to say all that I have spoken”

Am I building up or tearing down?  In the form of verbal attack face to face, just complaining  to others out of insecurities or pride or out right gossip, the words I might use are definitely not in obedience with my Lord.  Those are words that He has put into my mouth.

So am I seeking to please my Father with my words?

Lord be with me when I’m choosing my words.  Help me to only build up.  I want to be in obedience to  you and allow  you to guide me in my relationships.  Help me to walk in the steps of Jesus, following His example.  I am grateful for You! Amen!



Friendship, commitment, obligation, control, love, sincerity and actions are a few things that need to be steady in our lives.  Regretfully I’m finding that we are surrounded by relationships that are anything but steady.   To be steady in relationship that requires steady movement towards a better, more fulfilling relationship.  Just as this fountain pictured, as long as the pump is plugged in the power source and it pushes the water through there is movement and the end result is a steady flow and a beautiful ripple effect.  We must be plugged into our power source, Jesus, and allow His example of friendship, commitment, obligation, control, love, sincerity and actions to direct our steadiness in relationships.

1 John 4:9-21 (click to read)

God shows his love by action.  He doesn’t just say it, he demonstrates it with action. He is generous, continual, unconditional and intentional in his love to us.  And this is what our love to others should show.  It should call us to extend that love.  We love God and we love others. And we need to be steady in that love.

Sometimes that love is shown by extending until it hurts.  It may not be comfortable but it will be worth it.  God gave his only son for us out of love, so what do we give?

I have to show it with my actions.  Be steady and do what I say I’ll do.  Put others first and let my words be followed through by action.

Lord, I thank You for loving me so much that You were willing to sacrifice Your all.  Your son that came to show me real love and giving me a Holy Spirit to guide me in my daily walk.  I’m grateful Father that I can depend on You always and Your love for me is greater than any love I could imagine.  Help me show that same love.  Help me to be steady in my walk.  Amen!


Come and Follow Me

I’ve had this fountain for years and have enjoyed looking at it, watching it and listening to it.  But I’ve never been quiet satisfied with it.  It sat crooked, the way I had the water coming out of the pump didn’t give me the effect that I wanted but I wasn’t ready to make the change.   Till now!  There were several different reasons I needed to disassemble the fountain and start from fresh.  So I started thinking about the things I needed to fix.  First I had to patch the pin holes that had rusted in the metal after sitting in the same place for a lot of years.  Then I had to clean it after years of build up and patch the holes. But the main, the most important thing that I needed to do was figure out a way to bring more water through the fountain and change the flow so that it gave a more natural feel to the pump.  Basically multiply the amount of water pushed through the pump and out the spout.  I did that with a couple of different techniques.  Now I’m satisfied!

And it got me to thinking about a sermon I heard.  When Jesus came to the young men in the sea he said in Matthew 4:18-20 As Jesus was walking beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen.  “Come, follow me,” Jesus said, “and I will send you out to fish for people.”  At once they left their nets and followed him.

What is it that Jesus was wanting them to do?  Fishers of People, what does that mean? You would have to know Jesus to know this.  He came to seek and save the lost  Luke 19:10 but he knew that he was going to be killed so he had to have others that would carry out that mission.  So that’s what he did, John 17:4

Jesus has appointed me and you to continue carrying out HIS purpose.


So back to the pump, I needed to move more water through the pump.  I had to clean it and increase the size of hose then I added a piece at the mouth of the hose for the water to flow through.  And I was satisfied. And I wonder, am I satisfied where I am in carrying out Jesus’ mission?   Am I multiplying or being a fisher of people.  In the story where Jesus asked the men to come and follow him, it says that they AT ONCE left their nets and followed Him.  Is Jesus satisfied with me?

So I ponder these questions……….

  1. What do I need to drop to be able to follow Him?
  2. Am I available?
  3. Am I faithful and obedient?

And Most Importantly………….

4. Do I care about the lost?

And now I ask you the same.

Lord, I praise you and live in wonderment of all You have cared for me.  A once lost! I thank you with every fiber of my being and know that without you I would be nothing.  I ask you to walk with me and teach me how to follow you.  Make be brave to reach out to others who have not made that choice yet, reach out to those that are satisfied with not moving and multiplying, reach out to those who need support and encouragement and love as you have loved.  I ask this boldly and trust that you are here with me.  Amen!





Jesus asked me to JUMP!

I have learned when the same subject keeps coming up over and over then Jesus is trying to tell me something.

I just watched a famous tv/movie personality give a talk on “Jump” and then just a few days after that I received a notification that a pre-order audio book that I ordered a month ago was now available.  I was in amazement when the subject matter of the 1st chapter was on “Jump” .  Yep, Jesus is asking me to “Jump” again!

And I want to say, “Lord, I’m old and too tired.  Isn’t it time for me to rest?” Though I find myself wondering in anticipation of what door he was going to ask me to JUMP through.

You know they say hind sight is 20/20, so I started thinking back of all the times that he has asked me to jump.  Did I know that is what he was asking? No, but I believe the Holy Spirit was intervening for my ignorance. Still yet, I would jump!

My first jump was into his arms through baptism. What a true blessing.  This was a jump of Hope! Although I didn’t really understand what I was doing and regretfully it has taken me over 35 years to remotely understand.  The confusion and heart ache of my younger years and then moving right into a marriage to my prince charming, yes a Christian man, catapulted me into a long life of learning to love my Lord.

Then there was a long period of silence or at least I wasn’t listening, I was simply gliding through my spiritual walk.  I was gliding on the shirt tail of an image and family that I had put on a godly pedestal.

Then, a big jump!  The jump of trusting and leaning on Him through the ending of a 10 year marriage.  I was no longer going to have that marriage/family to steer me in my spiritual walk.  But I also was no longer going to be limited to what they thought a relationship with Jesus looked like, it was going to only be up to me now.

Then I jumped before I was lead.  Into a new marriage so quick after the heart ache of another.  Not asking for guidance just making my own deliverance.  And I was delivered into a new marriage to a man who, although loved me dearly, had a very different thought process than I did.  When I say hard 14 years, I mean HARD!  I told HIM I was done but if HE wanted this HE would have to fix it.  And HE asked me to jump again! Jump into a path of trust, dependence and silence.  Trust for HIM to be my voice and my strength.  I Jumped!  And HE fixed it.

During those 14 years of hard times, tragedy struck and sickness of a child hit and hit hard.   It also was a time of fear for the loss of another son to the ugly world. Another season to jump.  Jump into a faith that makes no sense but carries you through without question.   The knowledge that if I have faith, HE will come through.  So I jumped!

As I jumped in my faith, I was also asked to jump into leadership.  This was a role in my christian walk that HE had never asked me to jump through.  But it was a role that taught me so much about loving people where they are.  About working together through differences and glorifying God through it all.  This was a jump in obedience of being a servant.

When my husband and I got married, my children and I had moved 14 times over the prior 11 years and all I wanted was to be settled and have a home.  Which we did for 20 years but then life, security and home was changing.  HE was asking me to jump yet again. This was a jump of surrendering all!  Move from my family, my children/grandchildren, my friends and my church of 25 years.  This jump was frightening!  But I did it. So starting a new home, new state, new job, new church and new friends!  Almost too much new for 1 person!  But when the bottom seemed to be getting too close, Jesus would catch me because he had a plan.  And because I was willing to Jump HE was going to make it perfect.  And I’m beginning to see His plan now.

This has been over a period of 37 years and I would have thought my “jumping” years were behind me.  But no!  Jesus never stops asking us to “JUMP”!  With each and every jump there is growth.  Growth that gets me just a little bit closer to HIM.  Growth that shows me how much HE loves me and who HE made me to be.  Growth is hard but jumping is Good!

So I say………….

Isaiah 6:8 “Here I am send me”

Isaiah 6 – Full chapter click here

So what now?  And am I willing to do it without fear!

Lord help me be willing to JUMP everyday for You! Amen!


God is Not a Buffet

I heard it said the other day that, “God is not a buffet.”.  And that made me think, “Do I take Him for granted, knowing that He is readily available in multitude? Where I can get exactly what I need from Him and leave off anything that I don’t.”  Where I can pick and choose what verses that I want to hang on to and choose which ones I would rather forget.   Like the buffet in the picture, all that lovely food!  I could fill myself to the brim with all the things I love and leave off those not so appealing prunes.

In reality there is only 1 thing in that picture of the buffet that I need.  There is only 1 things that will satisfy my every need.  There is only one thing that I know would sustain me.  Can you see it?  I challenge you to not treat God as a buffet in your life.  Just as I challenge myself.  To not pick and choose those things that He gives to me in multitude but to take graciously everything He has to give.  To be grateful for all that He is and all that He has made me.

Ephesians 1:3 

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places,

Hebrews 10:23 

Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.

I am grateful! I pray Lord that I will share Your goodness with others. Amen!



Sometimes I just want to scream the injustice from the mountain tops!

Psalm 37:4-6

Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.

Psalm 9:10

And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.

Psalm 112:7

He is not afraid of bad news; his heart is firm, trusting in the Lord.

Romans 12:19

Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.”

Isaiah 43:2

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.

But that is not my job, it’s God’s!

Have you ever been unjustly accused of something?  Have you ever had harm done to you and carried shame around?  Have you ever been the topic of a gossip chain? Have you ever been in need and your needs were totally overlooked? Have you ever played a part of doing these things to someone else?  Have you ever?

I can tell you my answer to these questions would be YES.   Whether the unjust was done to me or to someone else, I am learning that it’s not my place to be the justifier. My only part is to try my hardest not to be unjust to others and to run to God when the unjust is towards me.  Shouting it from the mountain tops only shows that my faith in God is weak, not trusting that He alone is my justifier.

Lord, help me not be consumed when I am treated unjustly and help me be aware of my every action so that I will not treat others unjust.  I want to walk this earth in the way that You set the example.  Open my eyes, open my heart and hold me through it.  Amen!


The Workers are Few

Matthew 9:37  Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.

I’m so blessed to be a part of a church that encourages me to be more like Jesus and invest in others.  Yesterday we learned how Jesus started a movement of multiplication and that way it wasn’t up to Him alone to spread the good news of salvation.  He did this by several different steps.

1st – He had to put himself in the location of where the people were.  The people that needed to hear the good news and the people that would eventually be his disciples.

2nd – He had to have compassion for people.  Meet them where they were and encourage them to grow.

3rd – He prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed for the people and for His Father to put his followers in his path.  He also had a great dependence on His Father.

4th – He was willing to invest – invest in people and that meant time, patience and lots of love.

We are all called to multiplication.  To open ourselves up to go where we might not usually go. To have compassion and want to share the good news with others, understanding that everyone might not be where we are spiritually, emotional or otherwise. We must have a great dependence on the Lord to give us strength and lead us in the right direction, placing those in our paths that we need to get the job done. And then we must invest, invest in time is something that we all could say we are short of but it’s a necessary part of the  investment step.

We are reminded In Acts 4:13  When they saw the courage of Peter and John and realized that they were unschooled, ordinary men, they were astonished and they took note that these men had been with Jesus.

You know that ordinary people do extraordinary things because of the investment of Jesus and their willingness to invest in others.

So remember, You are extraordinary, I am extraordinary and we are extraordinary for Jesus.  Don’t be afraid just take that 1st step.

Lord, I trust  you to lead me in the right direction.  I trust you to put the right people in my path that will encourage me to grow and you will put the people in my path that I need to invest in.  I’m willing! Amen