Disappointed before Anointed and Anointed before Appointed
Let me tell you, I have experienced a lot of disappointment in my life. The world will do that to you. For years I simply thought that was a way of life and no way to avoid it. Something that just happens and you have to endure it. But then I started walking a little closer with my Lord and experiencing the gift of anointment.
An anointment is the application of oil in a religious ceremony. You don’t anoint your pasta with olive oil, anointment is usually performed by a religious leader on a person being blessed. You’re most likely to come across the noun anointment in a religious text or discussion. ref: Vocabulary.com
No HE didn’t come down from heaven and rub oil over my head but the anointment that came from HIM was poured over my soul.
I started seeing and paying closer attention to Him and His blessings, moving farther away from dwelling on the disappointments. I began utilizing the greatest blessing of Jesus through the Holy Spirit.
So no more bondage to disappointment, I am being freed from the disappointments of life. This is also freeing me to love others better.
He chose me, can you believe it? Nothing special to the world but spectacular to Him! He chose me and has appointed me to walk on His path and carry out His will.
To be appointed is to be given a task or job. ref: Vocabulary.com
I am so excited for my eternal appointment. As I walk this earth awaiting the most important meeting of my life.
With this God appointed future I must follow in His steps. I must reach out to those who do not know Him and are still living the life of disappointment. I must walk beside those who are seeking His guidance and encourage them through their path. I must love as He has loved me. I must not stop and allow my worldly self to get in the way. I must pull my strength from Him and Him alone. I must continue to trust as I remember my past to see how far He has brought me. I must continue down the path of my appointment, knowing He is with me all the way.
Lord, I trust You and I have seen You work in me. I draw my courage from You and I let You wipe away the fear of my mind. I will walk as You walk with me. Amen!
Becky Winburn……. That is a mouth full and for those who know her, you understand what I mean. She is as determined in love as she is in life. She gives with her full heart and gives without question. She loves people and cares beyond but is okay just being okay. No frills or pretension is coming from this girl. She’s a down to earth as I know. I moved to KY, new home, new state, new job and no “friends” and she was my first. The first week I started my new job she befriended me and it’s been a blessing ever sense. If you don’t know her, you should!
Like others who have told their stories I also was born into a Christian family. I was born Becky Sue Sams to Danny and Cecilia Sams and a big sister Dana. Although the nurse at the hospital insisted my mother could not name me Becky because it was a nickname my mother was victorious and I am Becky. I was brought home to a small white frame house that sat just yards from the four mile marker on Muddy Creek Rd. It was a safe haven and I was surrounded by Christian family and friends. My first memories of church were when we attended Antioch Christian church just a short distance from here. I loved bible school, Sunday school and Jesus at a very young age. When I was about nine we started attending church at Mt Olive Baptist down on Jackson Ferry. I remember having vacation bible school classes in a picnic shelter in the back. During that time was when I felt the call and gave my heart to Jesus Christ. I was baptized in the creek under the second bridge on White Conkright Rd., the one that is between where the old Allansville building stood and the house where Gilbert Wilder lived. My life was normal. Dana and I went to the pool and played outside all day in the summer and rode sleds and built snowmen and snowforts with our cousins in the winter. We attended church Sunday morning, Sunday night and Wednesday nights. My favorite thing of all to do though was to sit at my grandparent’s store that was directly across from our house and listen and watch. When I was twelve my dad bought a farm on Dry Fork Rd. Around that same time was when we started attending church here. At first the move to the farm was not much of a change. We were still just a short distance from where we had lived and my grandparent’s store was within walking distance. My other set of grandparent’s moved into a trailer on the farm. Life was good. Well that is until my dad started raising burley. We had always had a garden and mom canned. Shelling peas and lima beans and breaking green beans seemed like work. Suddenly I found out compared to raising tobacco that that had been child’s play. We had a few cattle and two pigs, cut and burned cedars but nothing was work like the tobacco. That is where I learned hard work. I tell people that all that hard work and fresh air is what has me so hardy. As the song goes I was country when country wasn’t cool. Then oh my then, I became a teenager. I never missed church and truly loved the Lord with all my heart. I was a fairly obedient child, well at least I think I was, but my parent’s may disagree. I was involved in Sunday School, Acteens, I sang in church accompanied by my uncle Jimmy and many times sang with my cousin Rhonda Slucher. I read the missionary moments every Sunday morning at the beginning of the service, it was just a paragraph or so about one of our missionary families. I graduated from high school at sixteen. This would be where my story becomes one of imperfection. Like the scripture says…the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. That summer at sixteen I helped teach my first VBS class with my mom. The five year old class, and boy were they ever entertaining. But little did I or anyone else know that long before MTV made the show “Sixteen and Pregnant” so popular I was in fact sixteen and pregnant. I started college that fall and on September 3 1983 I walked down the aisle in this very church as a child bride and married my high school sweetheart and became Becky Winburn. I had many imperfections in my life to this point but never one that would soon become so public. So it was that I delivered by c-section a daughter Whittney Dawn Winburn on January 6 1984. She had delivery complications and her lungs collapsed and she had multi system organ failure. She was taken to UK hospital and after 21 hours of struggle she just couldn’t fight any longer. She died January 7 1984. My world stopped.We had no medical insurance and my husband and I were faced with a mound of debt that was shadowed by a mountain of grief. If my church family had been disappointed in me for getting pregnant before marriage none of it showed. They gave money to help pay the medical bills, they purchased Gideon bibles in her memory, they sent me a sunshine box so that I would feel their love for me. I clung to God like never before in my life. Even in such a dark time my farm girl raising kicked in and I picked myself up and moved forward. There simply was no other choice. I found strength in King David’s words 2 Samuel 12:20-2320 Then David arose from the earth, and washed, and anointed himself, and changed his apparel, and came into the house of the Lord, and worshiped: then he came to his own house; and when he required, they set bread before him, and he did eat.
21 Then said his servants unto him, What thing is this that thou hast done? thou didst fast and weep for the child, while it was alive; but when the child was dead, thou didst rise and eat bread.
22 And he said, While the child was yet alive, I fasted and wept: for I said, Who can tell whether God will be gracious to me, that the child may live?
23 But now he is dead, wherefore should I fast? can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me.
So like King David I picked myself up knowing that one glad morning when this life is over I will again see my precious Whittney. I found a job, finished college and after more than two years after her death, I was pregnant again. Three would come over the course of the next seven years. Kellen, Coleton and Ashton. Healthy, happy, handsome and beautiful. I would get up on Sunday’s and fight the fight, find the lost shoes, or other lost clothing and get them all three dressed and ready and we would make our way to Allansville for Sunday School and church. Somewhere in those crazy years between Coleton and Ashton I began teaching Sunday School for 1-3 and 4-6 grades. Over the years and in spite of my imperfections I have taught SS, VBS, children’s church, mission friends, been in church plays and so on. As life would have it the days turned to weeks turned to months turned to years and the babies grew up. Through fevers, runny noses, three broken arms, a broken ankle, a broken thumb, a couple of cases of pneumonia, numerous broken hearts and one gunshot wound, any questions on this can be directed to Coleton, they were raised. My sons have given me two beautiful daughter in laws one of which is named Whitney. It is amazing how God works. He has given me two Whitney Winburn’s to love. My other daughter in law Anna allowed my son Kellen to give their first born daughter his older sister’s middle name, so she is Kailei DawnWinburn. She is one of four amazing grandbabies, there is Grayson, Mckenna and Easton. They are gifts that I could not even dream of in my younger days. He has blessed me with a front seat to see what a great mother my own daughter Ashton has become. God has been faithful even in my imperfection. And as life would have it another very public imperfection was on the way. After 29 years my marriage failed. I gave my resignation as a Sunday school teacher and continued to come and sit quietly in the back row. The week that the divorce was in the local paper I noticed during the time of fellowship there were those who generally don’t make it back to where I sit had made their way to the back corner just to shake my hand and ask how I was doing, never mentioning that they knew a thing. Although I felt unworthy and told him as much a very persistant preacher by the name of Ray Coates continually asked me to help with the children’s ministries again. So last summer I relented and accepted a position as a VBS teacher. Although attendance was low I realized how much I had missed teaching. When fall came around he ambushed me with reasons I should teach a Sunday school class again and I accepted. Yes as I said my story is one of imperfection but even more than that it is a story of grace and mercy extended to me by my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. My story can be summed up in this one scripture from Romans 3:23-24…. for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. So if someone asked me if God can use imperfect people to expand his kingdom I would first have to reference scriptural people, King David, Jonah, Moses and Paul come to mind. Then I would say that these walls that stand to each side of us would still only be mortar and brick, their would be no roof and the steeple would not be set in place for all to see who this building belongs to if not for imperfect people. There would be no hymns in the hymnals, no people in the pews to sing those missing hymns, without imperfect people the choir loft would be empty and collecting dust and cob webs and there would be no need for the baptistery that sits behind me. Yes I would have to say God can use imperfect people to do His will. I hope my story can encourage someone who thinks they are too imperfect, or sinful, or unworthy or bad for God to use. When we repent and believe all of our stories of imperfection can become this story from II Timothy 4:7-8 7 I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:
8 Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing
Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness. Thank you Lord for the reminder of your goodness through friendships. Amen!
It’s is well with my soul. Just saying it, relaxes me. How do we find that place where we can truly say, It is well with my soul?
The last couple of years have been an extremely emotional time for me. You would have thought after living through a divorce, hard marriage, a sick child and a rebellious child that I would know how to find that place easily. But it seems that this world/Satan doesn’t give up easily, wanting to drag me into the darkness of anxiety.
It has been proven to me in a big way, that even during the times of my divorce, hard marriage, sick child and a rebellious child that God was working in my life to put me where I am today. He has allowed me to be in certain situations that were going to grow me emotionally and spiritually. I didn’t realize that he was intimately working at the time but now that I look back he definitely was. He knew what I needed now even then. He knew the pain that I was going to be facing now and has taught me how to find the strength to endure through smaller/less painful situations. He knew what I was going to have to face 2 years ago and at the perfect timing he brought my birth father back into my life, after 49 years, to fill a void and make the pain easier to bear. He knew the things that I needed to learn so that I would be open to allowing this man, a stranger, enter my life, who would ultimately be a blessing to me and my family. HE KNEW ALL that I needed.
So now I have found that place, where even in the pain, disappointment and sorrow, I can say, “It is well with my Soul”.
I pray that yours will grow also and you can say, “It is well with my soul”
Lord, You have always been with me and showed me your grace and love. You have always known me and my needs, carrying me through my days. You have been faithful to me and I am grateful for You. I trust that you will continue to show your goodness to me and my family. Keeping us safe. I pray Lord that I will continue to walk down your path for my life and I pray that I will be willing to say “YES” to your calling for my life. I pray Lord for those who know you but may still be walking in that darkness, unable to have peace in their soul. I pray for those who do not know you yet and I pray for those that you are preparing to put in their path. Amen!
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit. It’s our choice. Do we live this life as if we were dead? Thinking with evil minds and acting with a dark heart? We don’t have to be literally dead in body to be dead in soul. Our thoughts and our words will control our actions. What sort of things do we let into our minds, things of evil or things of a spiritual nature. I was with some friends and we got on a topic of a “Slenderman”. I had never heard of it. Unbelievable! Well, actually not. This world has been over come with “self”. Desiring control, excitement, mystery, power and any other word that would describe our self interest. We must start somewhere, someone has to be the first in line, we can’t wait around for the other person to step up and show the world the way to Christ. We (You and Me) have been chosen to head up the team of warriors of Christ and lead this world back to Him. But we can’t do that if we’re living death in this life, living for self and exhibiting hatred instead of love. We have all the power we need. Not our power but His, our Saviors. Let’s take that first step together. Showing the world that it’s better to live life in this life. A life of love and gratitude. If we choose Him, we will eat the fruits of Life even in Death.
Dear Lord father, I am so thankful to You for sending Your Son to us. Giving us a living example of how to live life. I pray that I will look to Him to show me how to love those around me, how to love myself but not live for myself and how to have a grateful heart even in the darkest times. Because of Your sacrifice and His, we have Hope for today and eternity with You. I pray Lord that as I walk this life today, I will release myself to You and speak only with love and humility. I pray Lord that Your saving grace will be over my family and friends. I pray that they will choose to live this life with You and rid themselves of the darkness of this world. Amen!
But do I consider it? Am I intentional with my words? Am I using my words to build someone up or to tear them down? Am I using my words constructively or destructively? Am I using my words as the Lord would desire for me to or am I going completely against His will?
If asked, “Are you obedient to the will of God?”. I would like to say with an absolute boldness, “YES!”. But if I’m real with myself, I’d have to say “Sometimes”.
From the study books of Dann Spader, author of The 4 Chair Discipling, he says that obedience is God’s love language. When we obey Him, we are showing Him love and honor. Jesus made it clear that He did only what pleased His Father.
As in John 12:49 “For I did not speak on my own, but the Father who sent me commanded me to say all that I have spoken”
Am I building up or tearing down? In the form of verbal attack face to face, just complaining to others out of insecurities or pride or out right gossip, the words I might use are definitely not in obedience with my Lord. Those are words that He has put into my mouth.
So am I seeking to please my Father with my words?
Lord be with me when I’m choosing my words. Help me to only build up. I want to be in obedience to you and allow you to guide me in my relationships. Help me to walk in the steps of Jesus, following His example. I am grateful for You! Amen!
Friendship, commitment, obligation, control, love, sincerity and actions are a few things that need to be steady in our lives. Regretfully I’m finding that we are surrounded by relationships that are anything but steady. To be steady in relationship that requires steady movement towards a better, more fulfilling relationship. Just as this fountain pictured, as long as the pump is plugged in the power source and it pushes the water through there is movement and the end result is a steady flow and a beautiful ripple effect. We must be plugged into our power source, Jesus, and allow His example of friendship, commitment, obligation, control, love, sincerity and actions to direct our steadiness in relationships.
God shows his love by action. He doesn’t just say it, he demonstrates it with action. He is generous, continual, unconditional and intentional in his love to us. And this is what our love to others should show. It should call us to extend that love. We love God and we love others. And we need to be steady in that love.
Sometimes that love is shown by extending until it hurts. It may not be comfortable but it will be worth it. God gave his only son for us out of love, so what do we give?
I have to show it with my actions. Be steady and do what I say I’ll do. Put others first and let my words be followed through by action.
Lord, I thank You for loving me so much that You were willing to sacrifice Your all. Your son that came to show me real love and giving me a Holy Spirit to guide me in my daily walk. I’m grateful Father that I can depend on You always and Your love for me is greater than any love I could imagine. Help me show that same love. Help me to be steady in my walk. Amen!
In my experience anyway, the answer to this question is YES! I’ve had to face, accept and move past it before I could move forward with JOY! And I’ve had to do this many times with many different situations. But I wouldn’t have been able to do that without my Jesus!
“Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are right in your verdict and justified when you judge” (Psalm 51:4)
“For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more” (Hebrews 8:12)
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past” (Isaiah 43:18)
“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me” (Psalm 51:10)
“Do not remember the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you, Lord, are good” (Psalm 25:7).
As Paul is stating in Philippians 3 (click to read full chapter), putting no confidence in our own flesh but putting all our confidence in Christ. Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. And then follow His example and don’t forget about the other people who don’t know Him yet.
Job 17:9 The righteous keep moving forward, and those with clean hands become stronger and stronger.
Proverbs 4:18 The way of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, which shines ever brighter until the full light of day.
Romans 8:28 We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God: those who are called according to His purpose.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Psalm 33:18 But the LORD watches over those who fear him, those who rely on his unfailing love.
Psalm 32:8 I will instruct you and show you the way to go; with My eye on you, I will give counsel.
Proverbs 24:14 In the same way, wisdom is sweet to your soul. If you find it, you will have a bright future, and your hopes will not be cut short.
Isaiah 58:11 The LORD will guide you continually, giving you water when you are dry and restoring your strength. You will be like a well-watered garden, like an ever-flowing spring.
Psalm 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
1 John 5:14 And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us.
Proverbs 17:22 A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.
And we will have……….
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of respect, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if something is excellent or praiseworthy, think about these things.
2 Timothy 4:6-9 My life is coming to an end, and it is now time for me to be poured out as a sacrifice to God. I have fought the good fight. I have completed the race. I have kept the faith. The prize that shows I have God’s approval is now waiting for me. The Lord, who is a fair judge, will give me that prize on that day. He will give it not only to me but also to everyone who is eagerly waiting for him to come again.
So I pray for me and I pray for you, that we will face the past, accept it but NOT be buried in it. That we will move forward JOYFULLY! Amen!
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