Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good. Peter 2:2-3
I love spring! This time during the season that God’s warmth bares down on the earth and His refreshment falls freely on us and growth happens.
It’s a beautiful sight to see. Pockets of green starts popping out of the soil and the anticipation of watching the rainbow of colors that will soon appear. To watch the new season’s growth come alive is a blessing to my eyes.
Same goes for the spiritual growth in others. As they seek the Lord and search out His words to allow Him to bare down and refresh their souls. This is a beautiful sight and a blessing to my eyes.
I can only imagine the excitement in my God’s heart when I too seek Him. Spending time in His presence and meditating on His goodness. Allowing my roots to multiply and strengthen my foundation of faith. Gaining stability in my walk. Trusting Him for my protection as the seasons to come blow over me. Asking Him to comfort me during the strong winds and frigid times. Shielding me from the schemes of evil. I have tasted the Lord’s goodness and it is sweet.
When my husband and I moved to Kentucky 6.5 years ago, I was moving from my home of 28 years and from our kids. I was heavily tied into a church family and had many people there that I loved. I was actively involved in church and our community. Then we moved to Winchester. New place, new job, new church and new people. For an introvert at 51 years old that is a hard place to be.
We had found a place to call home and after about 3 months, I had decided on a church and found a job. But the people, I hadn’t found my place with the people yet.
I dove in head first. I was looking for that place where I fit. That place where I was invited. That place that was comfortable.
Was I trying to hard to find my place? Probably! Was I trying to make this place the place that I came from? Maybe! Was I trying to create the “circle of people” that I so longed for? Yep!
I needed that place. I longed for that place. The place of belonging!
And then I found it! It didn’t look like what I was expecting. It wasn’t the place of a home, job, church or people. It was the place where God was. Right there with me. Inside me. Guiding me. Holding me. Comforting me.
The Lord settled my need for place by showing me my place was with Him. And if I am content in Him then I am content anywhere.
Psalm 37:23 The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; Matthew 22:37 “Jesus replied: Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.
As a child we see the world as a big play ground. There is more and more to see and learn. We’re eager to do more. And as good parents should, we are encouraged. Our parents hold our hand, take each step with us and they spring with excitement when we do more.
As an adult, our eagerness for more grows intensely and our desires to do and have more is encouraged by the world. The world tells us more is expected. Pressures of providing more are strong. No one walks with us, we now have to step alone, dependent of self. We do more.
When is more enough? When will we allow our Lord to be our more? When will we let Him hold our hand, take each step with us and stop depending on self and start depending on Him?
Proverbs 19:23 The fear of the Lord leads to life; then one rests content, untouched by trouble.
When will be stop striving and start resting in HIS more?
To search is to obtain satisfaction that’s self serving
But that is not the search that I desire
1 You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. 2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
To search is to strive to give
To search is to provide hope to other’s life
To search is to obtain satisfaction in serving
And to search to to open one’s self up to HIM
9 The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?
10 “I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve.”
11 Like a partridge that hatches eggs it did not lay are those who gain riches by unjust means. When their lives are half gone, their riches will desert them, and in the end they will prove to be fools.
To search is to be honest
To search is to be aware of one’s weaknesses
To search is to find gain only through the Lord
22 So I will cast her on a bed of suffering, and I will make those who commit adultery with her suffer intensely, unless they repent of her ways. 23 I will strike her children dead. Then all the churches will know that I am he who searches hearts and minds, and I will repay each of you according to your deeds.
Psalm 9:16 The Lord is known by his acts of justice; the wicked are ensnared by the work of their hands.
We each have a standard that we live by. A standard that drive us. A standard that direct our decisions. Were we born with that standard or were we taught it? Whose standard are we living by?
2 Chronicles 12:6The leaders of Israel and the king humbled themselves and said, “The Lord is just.”
And even if we were taught the standard and the standard was from the Lord, we find ourselves abandoning that teaching. Reducing our standard to the standard of the world just as the people did in 2nd Chronicles but when they were faced and became aware of what they had done they became humble and the “just” Lord forgave them and delivered them “so that they may learn the difference between serving me and serving the kings of other lands” as it says in 12:8.
Proverbs 21:3 To do what is right and just is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice.
There are many things that people do in the name of being “just” that are not right. What is motivating their actions? Anger, selfishness, pride, guilt or any number of other things. Are we living right and just?
James 4:12 There is only one law giver and judge, he who is able to save and to destroy. But who are you to judge your neighbor?
I have seen many things that people do to each other that I do not believe is just. And I have been drawn to act and react in ways that I have to question. I have to search the scripture, God’s word, to confirm that my standard is being lead by God’s standard. I may have to make choices, hard decisions and set boundaries to protect myself and those I love from what I believe to be unjust but it is not up to me to seek justice. The Lord is the only one who has that power.
Isaiah 30:18 Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!
I may not ever see the justice that will come. But because I trust in the Lord who sets my standard, I will wait, I will love and I will forgive. Just as He has for me.
Acts 15:11No! We believe it is through the grace of our Lord Jesus that we are saved, just as they are.”
I’m a “get it done”kind of gal. You give me challenge and I’ll make it happen.
I’m in a season of my life where I’m finding myself leaning less on me and more on HIM. My world has been turned upside down in several areas over the last few years and I’m finding it harder to “get it done” then I ever have before.
I have no doubt that this season is for a reason. And this reason is only known by the ONE who knows me best. Now it’s my turn to allow HIM to “get it done”. To store up HIS commands and wait. To take all that I have learned to this point and wait. To seek out understanding and insight and wait. To cry out to HIM and wait.
Trust and Wait
Proverbs 2 -Moral Benefits of Wisdom
2 My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, 2 turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding— 3 indeed, if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, 4 and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, 5 then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. 6 For the Lord gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. 7 He holds success in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, 8 for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones.
9 Then you will understand what is right and just and fair—every good path. 10 For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul. 11 Discretion will protect you, and understanding will guard you.
12 Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men, from men whose words are perverse, 13 who have left the straight paths to walk in dark ways, 14 who delight in doing wrong and rejoice in the perverseness of evil, 15 whose paths are crooked and who are devious in their ways.
16 Wisdom will save you also from the adulterous woman, from the wayward woman with her seductive words, 17 who has left the partner of her youth and ignored the covenant she made before God.[a] 18 Surely her house leads down to death and her paths to the spirits of the dead. 19 None who go to her return or attain the paths of life.
20 Thus you will walk in the ways of the good and keep to the paths of the righteous. 21 For the upright will live in the land, and the blameless will remain in it; 22 but the wicked will be cut off from the land, and the unfaithful will be torn from it.
Habakkuk 2:1 I will stand at my watch and station myself on the ramparts; I will look to see what he will say to me, and what answer I am to give to this complaint.
I know that I’m not the only one who has walked through hard times. Those times for me have come in varied shapes and sizes. And I have walked through them with varied sizes of faith. I share with others that these times are simply an opportunity for growth and a season for learning how to lean on our Lord more but when we’re walking them, it’s hard to see that!
Recently I was walking through one of those times. My dear husband recognized in me what I couldn’t recognize for my self. My faith wasn’t leading my walk and I needed a time of rest so that I could hear the Lord more clearly. So he sent me away for a time such as this. God gave me a wise man. I’m calling this my Happy Place rest!
I took a 9 day trip and rested while I visited many who love me. You know God puts people and places here on earth that will restore, replenish and refocus us. They are God’s hands to hold us, His voice to soothe us and His creations for our eyes to be amazed and marvel at His glory.
My first stop was with supportive and loving but at times also honest friends. We all need those. You know the ones who love us NO MATTER WHAT and when needed will be LOVINGLY HONEST. This is a time of RESTORING!
Then I had a fabulous couple of days with family. Now understand not everyone that is considered family is a blood relative. Over these 2 days I had precious moments with my grandchildren and their parents (my son and his wife). Some how grandchildren trump the child! A time of REFOCUSING!
Then I also visited my old church in my home town. I call it the church I grew up in. Now understand I didn’t attend church when I was a child. So my growing up years were in my 20’s, 30’s, 40’s and 50’s. I was at this church for 28 years during the most crucial times. Young married, young parenting and young Christian period. They loved me through some of the joyous times and some of the hardest times of my life. I took steps forward and steps back during those years. I’ve been gone from that church for almost 7 years now and those people, the ones that when I walked in on Sunday morning, their hearts seemed to melt as they hugged me and reminded me how much they love me. A time of REPLENISHING!
Then I was off! Off to a new location for restoring, replenishing and refocusing!
Next stop was at my dad’s and step mom’s. And of course they just happen to leave at the beach……. A time of REPLENISHING! When we recognized the beauty of HIS creation it will settle the soul.
Just in the last 2.5 years, I have gotten reacquainted with my dad. After almost 50 years of not being a part of each others life we now have a chance. So this visit gave us a chance for him to show me off to relatives that remember me but I have no memory of. And also a chance to start a new relationship with a generation below me who I hope to continue this life with. He was able to show me the home that he was born in. A chance for me to make those memories. A time of REFOCUSING!
Now it was time for my trip to head back to where I came from.
When we’re on trips of restoring, replenishing and refocusing, we must be aware of what God places in front of us. One of God’s greatest creations in my book is a body of water. Doesn’t matter the size of the body just as long as it contains water. So as I’m driving I notice quickly a lake just a short distance off the road on my right. I started to pass it up but I remembered that HE talks to me clearer when there is water to wash away all the dirt. So I quickly found a road that lead to the right and I drove until I found a place where I could drive up and walk to the water. A time for REPLENISHING.
After a few minutes of viewing and a prayer of thanksgiving to the Lord, I was off to my next destination. I headed straight to the home of my Aunt Judy and Uncle Fred’s for some good food and love. I was able to share this time with my cousin and his wife, whom I love dearly. Never do I pass up an opportunity to see family who feeds into me words of love and wisdom. I also got to meet one of the newest additions to the family…. my 3rd cousin. It had been many years since I had spent time with them and it was a much needed time of RESTORING.
After a quick sleep over in my home town, I was off again to my home in Kentucky. During all the driving I took opportunity to praise my Lord in worship and listen to a book called “Circle Maker” and I enjoyed the time that the Lord gave me to RESTORE, REPLENISH AND REFOCUS. But it wasn’t until I pulled into my drive way and looked at the home that awaited me when I realized that the Lord had done all these things for me. He had given me people and places and his creation just for a time as this.
And He reminds me of His promises.
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. John 14:27
He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. Isaiah 49:29-31
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jereimiah 29:11
Thank you Lord for your never failing, ever lasting, great and mighty love!
John 16:33“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
I’ve found that “life” just happens and sadly enough some of it is just not pleasant. I’ve had many great blessings happen in my life but I’ve also had many that were and some still are very heart breaking. I keep waiting for the blessings to start out weighing the heart breaking. I’m not sure that is ever going to happen.
The one thing that I have that so many others don’t is Jesus will overcome this world! And I am part of HIS family. A very important part. Even though Jesus didn’t deserve or understand why those around him acted and felt the way they did, he still loved and went to that cross for them. He still bared that burden of sin in this world. But He knew that His seat was not of this world it was of heaven with His father. I have that same promise. When life happens………. I know where my seat is in heaven.
What am I supposed to learn?
James 1:12Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
I used to worry and fret and blame and curse. I would fuss and grumble. I would never look within to see if there was a lesson in that situation for me to learn. But in John 1 it says “blessed is the one who perseveres under trials, having stood the test”. But that doesn’t come naturally to me. Naturally I want to crumble under the pressure and curl up on the couch, eating anything I can find and then going for more. It was not until one day, one trial I looked deep to see what I could learn. And now, with each new trial I look. I search. I ask for His to show me 1 thing I can learn. And you know what………….. He will. It may be a simple lesson. It may be a lesson that I’ve learned before but need a little reinforcement. Or it may be a brand new one. With each new lesson brings a new opportunity to receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised me. This process helps the current trial be easier to bare. I’d be lying if I said that I never worried, grumbled, fussed, blamed or fretted any longer but that me, doesn’t hang around long because the LORD has promised something different to those who love him.
When will your will be shown?
Lamentations 3:25-26 The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
This has to be the hardest step. WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING I don’t like waiting. Most of society doesn’t like waiting. We have created a microwave world where everything come instantly and like we want it. If the microwave doesn’t do it for me, I can do it myself and not have to depend on anyone else for what I want. But really guys……. this is not reality. Reality is that the BEST THINGS come to those who wait on the Lord. But in that waiting, I also must be quiet and listen for His words. I just recently had another one of those times when I thought I was waiting and then as soon as that “thing” happened that I thought was from the Lord I jumped in with all fours. I just knew it was from Him. Because everything and I do mean every thing seemed so perfect. But I wasn’t listening to the Holy Spirit. You know that knot in the gut that just keeps saying “something ain’t right”. I recognized it but I didn’t listen to it enough to not jump in. Until weeks later when I realized that the serpent had just tricked me into taking a bite of that apple. So this time it was a lesson once learned but I needed to be reminded of. So now, I wait and listen and maybe wait some more.
Where do you want me?
Psalm 37:23 The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way;
This one is the hardest to answer but in some ways the easiest. I know that he wants me where I can serve Him with the gifts and talents that he has given to me. Where his glory will be shown to the multitudes with all focus being on him and not on me. So there is my answer, the easy one that is. But the hard one, not so easy to type out. I think before I can fully understand where God wants me, I have to answer the first 3 questions and have them stamped forever in my head and my heart. It’s not until I have seen the trial for what it is and where it came from, until I have searched for the lesson that I need to learn and waited on him to guide me that I will find where HE wants me. So the hard answer is…. I’m still learning.