How am I doing after 3 months?
Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.
2016 was an interesting year for me. Started out dealing with a past hurt, then it lead me to an old hurt that is now intersecting with the new and then right into meshing the past with the present. Maybe one day I will be more specific but for now that’s it.
But how did that lead me to 2017 word being Renew? And how am I doing with that process in the first 3 months? It’s really not that easy. 30 year old hurts may be a thing of the past and God definitely has a way of healing but he doesn’t choose to wipe those memories away. So creating new memories to heal those old ones is where He can heal me. The renewing of the mind. 40 year old hurts that intersect with the new life can be messy and hard. That’s when seeking His guidance in how to mesh them together, allowing the old to not control the new. Renewing of the soul. And then we come to the 50 year old past meshing with the present and allowing forgiveness and love which God has given me so freely be my guide for the future. Renewing of the heart. So how have I done? I’ve sought a lot of guidance from God and the Godly people in my life and I’m learning and still leaning on Him. The renewal of my life. There is still more for me in 2017 but I’m reminded that it’s not what is of this world that controls me. It’s my love for the Lord and His love for me that creates in me a clean heart, renews my spirit, restores my joy and holds me up.
So with that I’m still working on the “Renew”. Still seeking and listening to His small words and gentle nudges. Still trusting that through all of this mess and change, He has a plan for me.
He has the same plan for you. Your journey most likely doesn’t look like mine but His promises to you are the same. Just trust, seek and listen.
Lord, I trust. Each day even through my tears, fears, laughter and joys, I trust! I am grateful that You are always there for me, for us and for all the hurting and lost in the world. Help me to continue to seek you. Help me to feel your presence in my life. Help me to always trust. Amen!