I don’t know how!

I will never think of this phrase the same. Saturday around 3:30 pm, I got some news that totally rocked my boat. I went through the process of shock, disbelief and pain. As I’m rushing to the hospital to be with a friend, I was crying out to the Lord, “I don’t know how to do this!”. I don’t know what to say, I don’t know whether to show my grief or be stoic. I simply just didn’t know. That’s when I had to rely on this verse to show me……….

Proverbs 3:5-6 [Full Chapter]

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Truth is, there are no words, there are no perfect actions, there is nothing that can make this okay.

Once I arrived to the hospital and got to my friend, she said those same words, “I don’t know how! I don’t know how to do this!”. This day my friend lost her 4 year old to a drunk driver. There is no right way. There is no step by step manual for this.

So all I can do is trust. All she can do is trust that He will lead the way. I will pray that she and her husband stay strong in the Lord. They hold tightly to their faith and they allow each other to grieve in whatever way they need to. That they will not shut each other out. That they will be honest with those around them on the days that life is just not okay. That they will be able to rest and that they will be able to smile. That they will not let the child they have with them suffer this loss on his own. That they will share in each others pain and they will someday be able to rejoice with each other again.

I don’t now how but I fully trust that God Does!

Lord, be with this family. Hold them tightly in your arms and give them comfort. Help those around them, and me, know how. Amen!