Seems my life has been one big revolving door. It started when I was young. Experiences I had put me on a path I couldn’t find myself turning away from. I’ve made decisions, decided which way to turn and always seemed to find my way back to the same point. Lost! Confused! Shamed! Guilted! Sinful! Back to the same place, didn’t matter if I turned left or right, went straight or turned around. Back to the same place!
Then I was guided by a dear lady that loved me enough to be brave with me. Share with me the turn that I needed to make.
But your iniquities have made a separation between you and your God, and your sins have hidden his face from you so that he does not hear.
I know now, the right turn to make but do I always choose it?
All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned—every one—to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
I have had to suffer great pain, much heart ache and some personal losses to draw closer to Him. To understand that when ever I’m at a cross road and don’t know which way to turn, the right decision is to turn to God. Reminding myself each time when my sin draws me away that Jesus already paid the price for me.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Now, I come to a place where I know when I turn to Him it’s always going to be right. I may have to wait on Him to show me my next steps but He will.
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
So no more revolving door for me! I absolutely don’t always make the right decisions, don’t always take the right steps but I am aware each day that it’s a new one. A new day to draw closer. A new day to turn to Him and allow the Holy Spirit to guide me. A new day to let His grace and the sacrifice that Jesus made for me renew my soul and turn me in the back to eternity.
Lord, I’m without words. Amen!